#206-My heroes

My idols and heroes are as follows

• Charles Bukowski
• Warren Zevon
• Dr. Hunter S Thompson
• William Shakespeare
• David Bowie
• James Gandolfini
• Marlon Brando
• Bob Dylan

What I realized recently is that all except Dylan are dead. I think part of why I love these people aside from their talent, personality and originality. why I love and care for them so deeply is because they’re dead.

It’s hard for the dead to disappoint you. These legends and heroes of mine will always be there and be who they are. It’s the living who disappoint you not the dead. It’s sad and beautiful. I’ll never see Warren Zevon in concert but he’s got all his art out there and that makes my day and world a better place. I’m thankful I’ve found them. Gandolfini is my definition of a man and an artist for r as long as I can remember. He’s as close to me as anybody I feel. I love these people for different reasons.

I’ve reached a point where I can accept I was looking for a father figure in my life and these men filled the empty piece inside of me. That empty love was replaced with their beautiful art and if I could only thank them and tell them how they shaped me that’d be transcendent.

That’s my drunk thoughts as I sit in Shakespeare’s bar in London the week before Christmas. It’s not all so bad Ian, now have another Jameson and kiss Eva under some Missletoe ya moody shit !